This is the first time ever somebody reads this. Please tell me every curse you know which may come into your mind after reading next paragraphs. Because I have cursed myself everyday with words like; idiot, inept (my father’s favorite), trash, psycho.
I have not wanted to be a lover on that time. I have hated to be attached
to someone or something. I did even ran away from my family. Until I found
someone. Like other boys on that age and time, I met her in Yahoo. Our first
date was in our university. We sat on two separate bench because we afraid of university
securities. I did not have a fear about these guys but when I met her I scared.
My heart was tearing apart. However, indeed I was a master of self-control. Especially,
control of emotional. I knew myself as a totally reasonable and an introverted
boy. From the first day I heard her voice I was surprised. I should not depend on
someone but even her voice hypnotized me. Voice? Come on! Beethoven? No! Her voice was the best music of the world
of all time. Who’s Beethoven! I decided to run away when I first met her. But I
could not. I did whatever I could but finally I get back to her. The earth
gravity was towards her. Her face, I was in love with every single part of her
body. The first girl stood beside me in a train and talked to me. The first
girl I kissed her hand. The first girl I kissed her lips in a dark alley. The first
girl I put my hand on her shoulders in a taxi. And so many other first things
which some of them was the last one! I was a religious man. But when I saw her
I changed my Kiblah and I just have had one word to say for praying: Goddess
To be continued...