Until she signed for the PhD exam, (we called it ‘konkor’ in our country). I know she will be accepted as a PhD student. She is so talented. I just pray she will be accepted far from me. The distance between two lovers is the best answer for running away from each other. She got in with the best score. Third in a country. I was very happy and shared my happiness with my friends! Happiness of the running away! Happiness of starting living in hell! I cut our relationship less than a year after. It seems that all my body’s part were broken. I was in no mood for doing something. I just finished my MSc and should start my military service. I just remember all my memories with her with hearing or looking at each English word or anything related to English! It made me crazy. After a while, my life was a disaster. I had to get married. I should be married in the next two or three month. Well, why did I propose to my only love of my life? Since she had everything and I have nothing. Especially, deserving her. I knew in the first place that the reason for running way is she, not me. She is awesome. I am nothing. Therefore, I should not engage her in my miserable life. She should not see real me. She deserves much much much more.
To be continued....