I check her Telegram profile (and other profiles) almost every day. I watch her photos and touch them on the screen and cry. I know I lost her. But I also know she was my first and last love of my life. So I continue this situation until the day I die.
We gave each other a nickname. She called me pishi (kitty) and I called her fishy. Wow! I really miss those days. I truely miss her voice. Sometimes I called her in an anonymous number. She just said a few words and hung up on me. But I love these moments. Her voice was inspiring.
I remember the moments we talked too long and after that I think I can run the world!! Yeah. She was my only motivation. Actually I am sure if something happens to her I will kill myself. This world without her means nothing to me. So why bother?!
I love you fishy.
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